This past year has been full of twists, turns, and 180s. I'm finally on a straight path, or about as straight as they can come. I have found my one love, my true joy, what brings me peace, and instills patience, who helps me do all things in kindness, inspires me to goodness, and is helping me develop my self control.
The journey to where I am now has not been an easy one. It started as a call from God while I was sitting at my desk back home. I had been running for such a long time, trying not to get caught. I had been doing everything in my power to keep me from who I am. Then one day after about two years of constant running- from places, people, things, I let my guard down and gave up. My decision to give up, to stop running from everything that is best for me, has turned out to be one of the most, if not the most influential and important decision of my life.
One afternoon sitting in my desk chair, I turned around and collapsed into God's arms. The journey from that point on was not always rainbows and butterflies. It was and has continued to be hard work, yet it is the most fulfilling, joy giving task I have ever been given. At times it is heart wrenching, as you realize your own brokenness and break down in tears, as the conviction of the Spirit falls on you, as you surrender everything that you once held dear. But what you get from this, what you are able to do from this is so much better than anything you could ever have possibly even imagined before. I can not even begin to try to come up with a vocation more important than sharing the love of God, and the saving grace of Jesus with the rest of the world.
The journey to where I am now has not been an easy one. It started as a call from God while I was sitting at my desk back home. I had been running for such a long time, trying not to get caught. I had been doing everything in my power to keep me from who I am. Then one day after about two years of constant running- from places, people, things, I let my guard down and gave up. My decision to give up, to stop running from everything that is best for me, has turned out to be one of the most, if not the most influential and important decision of my life.
One afternoon sitting in my desk chair, I turned around and collapsed into God's arms. The journey from that point on was not always rainbows and butterflies. It was and has continued to be hard work, yet it is the most fulfilling, joy giving task I have ever been given. At times it is heart wrenching, as you realize your own brokenness and break down in tears, as the conviction of the Spirit falls on you, as you surrender everything that you once held dear. But what you get from this, what you are able to do from this is so much better than anything you could ever have possibly even imagined before. I can not even begin to try to come up with a vocation more important than sharing the love of God, and the saving grace of Jesus with the rest of the world.
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